Monday, July 13, 2009

Not keeping up...

So, I have once again neglected to update my blog as often as I would like. But what can I happens. We have been keeping busy with Joel's schooling, Thomas almost being 3, and me starting my free-lance make-up artistry again. Its been a good few months. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Tag....if you read this, you are IT!!

Here are the specifics:

1. Go to the 4th picture folder on your computer.

2. Post the 4th picture in that folder.

3. Explain the picture.

4. Tag 4 more people.

Here goes:

"This is our family portrait for Christmas 2007"
Now, it's YOUR turn! If you read this you have to post as well! Have fun!!

Flooding....(an update)

Just to let everyone know, we are home safe and sound. Roads opened up early this morning, and we got home this evening to a dry, warm house. Thank God that we were spared from the flooding. While we were at our friend's house, we also brought our dog, I am grateful for that too, because, if we didn't, he would of been stranded here for 2 whole days. So, we are fine, safe, and warm. YAY GOD! Thanks for prayers for our family during this time. And, thanks to our friends who let us invade their space a little longer than anticipated. We are blessed to have such good friends.

Thursday, January 08, 2009


So, as our area is experiencing warmer weather after 17+ inches of snow, we get to deal with the snow melting and with that comes FLOODING! Yeah, you heard me, flooding....our area is completely underwater, except the down town which is where our house is located. Thank God that we have been at our friends' house for the last few days so we have not been stranded. There is practically NO way to get to or from our house, because the surrounding area is flooded, near the freeway, there is Denny's and another Turkey house, the water level there is up to the windows. Yeah, I am scared that when we finally get to go home, we will see our house with water damage. Please pray for our family that the flooding will not reach our house. I just thank God that we decided to be at our friends house over the last few days. Everyone is here, including our dog. So, we are all safe. I pray that we can get home by the weekend. I really don't like the idea of coming home to a big mess to clean up. Pray that we will have perseverance and patience through this.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

When to say enough...

I have not wanted to blog about a current situation that I am in, just because whenever I think about it, it brings horrible feelings, and bad thoughts to my mind. I don't like feeling like that or having those bad thoughts, so I have avoided, though I think I just need to write about it and get it out and hopefully off of my heart.

My husband and I have had a friendship with someone that has gone completely awry. I am not going to say who this person is because I believe in not spoiling a name for others. Anyway, so when JV and I met back in 2004, he was friends with this person. Best friends pretty much, and they always hung out, and were really close...until I came into the picture.

When JV and I started dating she was less and less in his circle because he was spending more and more time with me and developing our relationship. His friend did not like that. So she did some pretty horrible things to try to get us to either break up or drive a wedge between us. She did that for about 1 and 1/2 years. Until JV and I got married.

Things from her end slowed down because I think she realized that there was nothing she could do that would make us separate. And slowly, her and I became friends. We would get together socially at first because I still didn't "trust" her to the point of wanting her that close to me. And after about another year we were pretty good friends. She would come over to our house, and hang out with me when JV had school or when she got off of work. She even told me at one point that I was becoming one of her "best" friends. And, I took that at face value, cause I always try to see the best in people. OK so we have been going pretty well for the last year and a half or so.

Fast forward to November. We were at a mutual friends house for a birthday celebration. And a few people were in the kitchen getting dinner ready, grabbing beverages and what not. Well, it ended up just being her and JV in the kitchen alone, OK...I need to back track a little....she was trying to break us up in the beginning because she was "in love" with him, and wanted him for herself......OK, back to November, so they were in the kitchen. He was telling her how this quarter in school is going to be very busy for him, and he won't be home as much has he had been in previous quarters. He told her that it would be great if she could come "rescue" me from just being at home all day.

She looked at him, and said "I don't want to do that." He was a little surprised because he thought that we were good friends, so he asks her "Why?" and she said "Because I think your wife is annoying and whiny, and I don't want to hang out with her.....even your son is annoying and whiny."
At this point JV is thinking "What in the world are you telling me this about MY family for?" and she proceeds to say "But I think you are great!"

OK, can you see why I am frustrated and why this is really hard for me to get over? Not only has she called me those things, but to say them about our TWO year old son! I was livid when JV told me about this. I mean, if she didn't want to be my friend, that's OK, I can live with that. But to sit there and call us these things, and then tell my husband that she thinks he is "OK" just boils my blood.

All of this makes me think that the only reason she was even my friend was to be close to MY husband. So anyway, JV and I have cut all ties with her, and we are letting that so called friendship go...

I just hope I can figure out what God is trying to teach me in all of this. It hurts so bad to think that I put so much into someone just to have it thrown back at me. So please pray for me as I try to let this go and let God take it. I know there is a purpose and a reason for everything, I am just trying to figure it out. I have had trust issues in my past, and I have come to realize that this situation can hinder the progress I have made with that. So I have been praying about it, and venting to my husband, and just trying to see Gods will in all of this...Thanks for letting me vent to you, whoever reads this.
Heavenly Father,
Please forgive my ugly thoughts toward this situation, and help me to see that You have Your hands in everything that goes on in my life. Help me to forgive and let go. Bless everyone involved that they will more clearly see You. Thank You for the people in our lives, and thank You for the avenue of prayer that I can come to You and let all of my burdens and heavy heart wash away. Thank You Lord for Your Son. And thank You Lord for the family that You have blessed me with. Help me to heal and to learn to trust more in the way that You would see fit.

Friday, January 02, 2009


I know I haven't blogged in a long while, I have been debating on whether or not to actually keep my blog, and I have decided to keep it and make a concious effort to update it.
I got discouraged when it seemed like no one was reading it. I have come to realize that even IF I am just writing to myself, that is alright. I can keep a sort of journal of memories to look back on a long while from now, and that, to me, is pretty cool.
I hope that people start following along as I live my journey and blog about my goings on. I would love all friends to know what is going on in my life. It can be pretty crazy, so fasten your seat belts, keep both hands inside the car at all times and here we go...

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Facing Your Worst Fears.

Your worst fears are usually the ones that never happen. Unfortunately, they're also the ones that keep you from trusting yourself and your abilities. Doesn't it seem silly to give up in the face of an anxiety that may be no more real than the fairy tale troll that lives under the bridge? If you approach a possible roadblock with hesitation, it might resist and break your resolve. But if you step forward with confidence, you can climb that wall, even one inch at a time, and pull yourself over the top. It's all about confidence, which you build by facing problems. Then you know that you can take on anything that comes along. The unknown monster under the bed is always scarier than the dust bunny reality.